March 2010
MARIA HEIONE HAN!
I SINCERELY APOLOGIZE FOR YOU MISFORTUNES!
day 05.
Today, I had some wonderful freakking pasta. Thank you, Ira Yeung. You really have a talent that I would die to have. Instead people die because of my lack of talent. Also, I know what jokes are. But I am terribly, TERRIBLY, insecure. Please respect that and even if your joking when you call me fat, please don’t. I can never tell if you’re telling the truth or not because all humans...
February 2010
day 04.
I love chocolate.
day 03. part II.
You know that you’ve finally done something right when you procrastinate the hell out of the important duties you much accomplish and you can still smile and say that you felt a smidgen better than you normally do, even on rainy days. things change. people change. I might not be the same tomorrow. p.s. PARK HYO SHIN IS MY NEW OLD OBSESSION!<3
미안하다 사랑한다
(via mariafosheezy)
YOU KNOW when you told me about this, I was listening to snow flower by park hyo shin. IT ALL FITS<3
day 03.
sigh.
day 02.
Break has ended. Time for me to return the real world. I never knew that the end would make me as sad as I feel right about now. I’m going to go sulk as I write my Literary Analysis and attempt to finish Oedipus. It’s going to be a long night. Damn my laziness and tendency to procrastinate!
day 01.
I downloaded a computer security system today. [thanks jessica tu<3]. But the first one completely failed because of something I can’t remember. I don’t speak computer very well at all. So now, I have this “Anti-Malware Pro” thing and it’s scanning my computer SUPER crazy. My laptop didn’t have as many problems as I thought it would since my other computer...
I am.
I am crying on the inside because I feel a pain I do not understand. I feel an overwhelming feeling and it consumes me in its ferocious waves. I am restless and cannot sleep. I long to run, to jump, to fly, and to soar yet I am chained so to a limited figure. I am starving and famished for more, for new, for better and greater. I am insatiable and ravenous. I am longing for something beyond what...
delusional.
reminiscing.
oh frack.
my heart feels like it’s going to explode. my mind is running in circles and it just gets faster and faster. there are butterflies fluttering in places I don’t understand. things are beating completely out of control and everything is just crazy. and I can’t stop smiling because I feel so wonderful<3.
so restless.
I cannot sleep. I want to shut my eyes and fall into dreamland or whatever, but it doesn’t work. I laid down for like 30 minutes and I got nothing…It’s been like this for about two hours now and it’s now 1:22 AM. I hate this feeling of not being able to fall asleep. It’s not even like I’m not tired, I am tired, I’m just so restless and my body wants to...
today.
I smiled, and it felt AWESOME. :] then it got ruined because edwin called me maria… and then he proceeded to call me jennie… sigh….
mad world - gary jules.
and I find it kind of funny, and I find it kind of sad. the dreams in which I’m dying are the best I’ve ever had. I find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to take when people run in circles it’s a very, very mad world. mad world.
shadow of the day.
Today was a fun day :]. I learned two things today: I’m really obnoxious when I laugh. I’m terrible at bowling. oh wait…I learned three things. Laughing obnoxiously and bowling terribly with your friends is always a good thing<3. I had lots of fun todayyy.
forget.
forget the regret you feel and seal away all the terrible things you want to say. forget the pain remove the sorrow just let the rain wash everything down for a better tomorrow. forget the people who have hurt you so and remember those who have helped you let go. forget the world and all who inhabit it. close your eyes and wait for the pain to die. forget the bad. forget everything....
i feel.
dangerously alone. and dangerously numb. and i’m terrified.
pain.
House: You’re dead aren’t you? Amber: -nods- House: Am I dead? Amber: Not yet. Amber: House, you have to get off the bus. House: I can’t. Amber: Why? House: It doesn’t hurt here. Nothing hurts here. I have no pain. I don’t want to feel pain anymore. I don’t want to be miserable. And I don’t want Wilson to hate me. I just want to stay. Amber: We...
i want a really big hat.
a big overbearing hat :D. oh and i also want long hair. long luscious hair.
herm.
I have no feelings.
HELLO THERE EPIPHANY.
you know something?
I used to have a best friend. We never fought, and I would call him randomly at the middle of the night and I would know that he was awake, and he would be. He was the only one I would be able to call because he actually understood the random crap I said. I met him when I was in 8th grade in science class. He sat in front of me and wanted to steal my homework. I was like what the eff? Go away. But...
I want to live in a song.
The song you play over and over again. The moment you see, when you hit the song’s highest point. I want to LIVE in that moment, the part where you actually forget that there is a world outside your room. I want to LIVE in the moment where you actually forget that there are other people breathing the same air as you are. Free. Alone.
delusional.
you think you’re dead. but you’re not. i haven’t killed you yet.
i am a vampire.
no. i am not edward cullen. i am a vampire. sheesh.
Things A Girl Wants But Don't Ask For.
mariafosheezy:
jetaimedeex426:
illnotsicc:
1. Touch her waist. 2. Actually talk to her. 3. Share secrets with her. 4. Give her 1 of your sweatshirts 5. Kiss her slowly. Are you remembering this? 6. Hug her. 7. Hold her. 8. Laugh with her. 9. Invite her everywhere. 10. Hangout with her and your friends together. KEEP READING 11. Smile with her. 12. Take pictures with her. 13. Pull her onto...
herm.
so today, I had a hard time walking. I busted my knee yesterday iceskating. lol. there goes my dignity. anyway, I was at borders with jessica tu, maria han, jonathan maw, and sonu santhosh. jess, maria and I were supposed to start our psychology project, but we didn’t. so we went to school zone instead. there are obviously two streets you have to cross and maria, jess, and jonathan decide to...
thank you for playing.
JUNG YONG HWA SPAMMM!
wfjkhgvwjkgnwrjergneklmklrmbgereberbergebjgvbevgjkbdxkvdfvdfvdfvdfgvdgvdvd…. writer’s block.
at borders.
trying to study. not really. working.
gives me hope.
that what day you’ll see how much more you deserve, how much you mean, how little you have but how much more you’ll receive times three, times three.
it gives me hope that even if the pain burns excruciatingly throughout your being that later, everything, will be happier times three, times three. i wish you all the happiness in the world. and it gives me hope to know that one day,...
12 signs your falling in love
mariafosheezy:
khenglien:
1. You’ll read his or her texts over and over again. 2. You’ll walk really really slow while you’re with him/her. 3. You’ll pretend to be shy whenever you’re with him/her. 4. While thinking bout him/her, your heart will beat faster and faster. 5. By listening to his/her voice, you’ll smile for no reason. 6. While looking at him/her..you cant see the other...
so just pull the trigger.
as my life flashes before my eyes, I’m wondering will I ever see another sunrise. so many won’t get the chance to say goodbye. but it’s too late to think of the value of my life.
and you can see my heart beating. you can see it through my chest that I’m terrified but I’m not leaving. I know that I must pass this test. so just pull the trigger.
and I will go down
with this ship. and I won’t put my hands up and surrender. there will be no white flag above my door. I’m in love and always will be.
